I have been in a place of deep thoughts and remembering today.
This morning I was again in my sunroom seeking the face of God for my day.
I was reading from the book of John along with using my study guide. It was very thought provoking and bought me to a place of remembering .
My mind went back to a summer so long ago, I cannot say what year, only that I know it was summer as I as out on my lawn on a blanket soaking up some sun and studying the word of God. I came across a verse that I had loved and prayed for my life a different times. The difference was I now was looking at the full verse before me. So let me share the first part now with you that I had prayed for myself with joy and exceed expectancy when I did. Philippians 3:10 ~ That I may know Him and the power of His resurrection... Well in my mind who wouldn't want to know the Him in this way? In the way of His power in the Resurrection! Now that is some awesome power.
But on that day as I started to read this verse and get excited again I felt the nudge of the Holy Spirit to look deeper and really see what the verse continues on to say. And here is the full of it. Philippians 3:10 ~~ That I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death. I said in prayer, "Wait Lord!Hold up here ! I never realized this is how this verse went. It is one thing to pray to know your power in resurrection but the fellowship of "Your Sufferings" that is quite a different thing." I laid there in the grass, I remember it as if it were yesterday, and I talked quietly in prayer with the Lord about all that he might ask of me in this. I felt the small still quietness that is the sweet whisper of my Savior to my heart reminding me I was safe in sharing His sufferings. I told the Lord I was scared of suffering. I ended my prayer time with a prayer of acceptance praying the whole of this verse over my life.
Now five years after my sons death I know I have experienced suffering and will continue to over this loss. I can say I am safe in the suffering as God promised me in that time with him so many years ago. I also have to admit I did not start this process of suffering with any sense of safety but felt ripped from God and the safety oh His love at times. I had lots of grace and many moments of doubt with lots of questions. But God is faithful and I know without a doubt that I would not have wanted to suffer in any way with out Him .
I leave you with this photo of my young handsome son who will never get beyond his 22 years and 63 days that he had on this earth. He would have been 27 this past October. I am certain of this one thing though, He is with the Lord and he celebrated his birthdays since that night 5 years ago this December 28th , with such blessed and angelic celebrations that not one thing I could have planned here for him could match it. Praise the Lord for his amazing gifts this side of heaven and beyond.
Lord Jesus,
I pray you will bless this post and that others will know the power of your resurrection and if or when they are called to suffer you will meet them in the ways only you know how to. Hug those who are already suffering and give then your great comfort and help them receive the awareness of your great unfailing love and safety in the midst of their suffering. I ask all this in your powerful and life giving Name, Jesus. Amen
This morning I was again in my sunroom seeking the face of God for my day.
I was reading from the book of John along with using my study guide. It was very thought provoking and bought me to a place of remembering .
My mind went back to a summer so long ago, I cannot say what year, only that I know it was summer as I as out on my lawn on a blanket soaking up some sun and studying the word of God. I came across a verse that I had loved and prayed for my life a different times. The difference was I now was looking at the full verse before me. So let me share the first part now with you that I had prayed for myself with joy and exceed expectancy when I did. Philippians 3:10 ~ That I may know Him and the power of His resurrection... Well in my mind who wouldn't want to know the Him in this way? In the way of His power in the Resurrection! Now that is some awesome power.
But on that day as I started to read this verse and get excited again I felt the nudge of the Holy Spirit to look deeper and really see what the verse continues on to say. And here is the full of it. Philippians 3:10 ~~ That I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death. I said in prayer, "Wait Lord!Hold up here ! I never realized this is how this verse went. It is one thing to pray to know your power in resurrection but the fellowship of "Your Sufferings" that is quite a different thing." I laid there in the grass, I remember it as if it were yesterday, and I talked quietly in prayer with the Lord about all that he might ask of me in this. I felt the small still quietness that is the sweet whisper of my Savior to my heart reminding me I was safe in sharing His sufferings. I told the Lord I was scared of suffering. I ended my prayer time with a prayer of acceptance praying the whole of this verse over my life.
Now five years after my sons death I know I have experienced suffering and will continue to over this loss. I can say I am safe in the suffering as God promised me in that time with him so many years ago. I also have to admit I did not start this process of suffering with any sense of safety but felt ripped from God and the safety oh His love at times. I had lots of grace and many moments of doubt with lots of questions. But God is faithful and I know without a doubt that I would not have wanted to suffer in any way with out Him .
I leave you with this photo of my young handsome son who will never get beyond his 22 years and 63 days that he had on this earth. He would have been 27 this past October. I am certain of this one thing though, He is with the Lord and he celebrated his birthdays since that night 5 years ago this December 28th , with such blessed and angelic celebrations that not one thing I could have planned here for him could match it. Praise the Lord for his amazing gifts this side of heaven and beyond.
Lord Jesus,
I pray you will bless this post and that others will know the power of your resurrection and if or when they are called to suffer you will meet them in the ways only you know how to. Hug those who are already suffering and give then your great comfort and help them receive the awareness of your great unfailing love and safety in the midst of their suffering. I ask all this in your powerful and life giving Name, Jesus. Amen
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