The Day

     Today is the day of my birth. It also just happens to be the day of my brothers, obviously making us twins. We did not get together just texted our birthday greetings to one another. We always joke with each other and today when he said , "we are old " ' I made sure I told him I am still sweet sixteen. He had his comeback and I point out that I can be as young as I feel on any given day. In reality choice is a big part of life. Today I did not do so well.  I woke in a down place Struggling with it all day. At one point I would love to have been given a chance to get a do- over and be able to enjoy my birthday with my husband.
   It seems to be a naturally occurring problem that these months leading up to October and on till December and even beyond my mind goes to automatic grief mode. It can last days without skipping a beat or on and off. October the 20 th is the 5th anniversary of my moms home going and then in December on the 28th  my son went home to heaven as well. A horrific year an major change to my life and for my family . My birthday is difficult and so I struggled through and now I will sleep with my mom and my son in my mind and close to my heart making my birthday a blessing .  
          2 Corinthians 5 : 4 - 8
  For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed , but further clothed , that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared for us this very thing is God , who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident , knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from The Lord. For we walk by faith and not by sight. We are confident , yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with The Lord .