Some days

        Some days you just need to rest! Today is a day like that for me. Yesterday was a prosperous day
With a great meeting with those students. I am so blessed to have these high school students on my team in this out of the darkness walk. It is like some how in my son's death he has pushed me out and is responsible for this stretch with a positive out reach . I expect with this I am going to make some new friends and strengthen some old ones.
 But for today I am trying to rest as I am exhausted in this new journey of planning a walk for a community.
        I started this a couple days ago and some how got distracted and never finished so I will try again now. I am pleased that things are moving along in the planning of the walk and that although I feel incompetent in my abilities to get this done I am being blessed by those who are gifted to be the source to pull it to completion . Praise God! I am excited to see how this comes out. Another way to deal with this time of year and it's painful pulses in my every day.
  In a matter of months I,and my family, will brave the cold and snow to what ever degree it delivers as we for the 5th year I a row we hike out to my sons grave and light candles and pray and remember out sweet son,nephew,cousin,brother. I will again make a snow angel and light and leave a pumpkin spice candle burning under his bench leaving a warm glow for as long as it will. I am always amazed when I finally get back there that that candle housed in a glass vase has burned down to as far as it can what with the melted wax. I leave a pumpkin spice candle as his favorite pie was pumpkin and some how it seems fitting.
  Now my family and I , and many others who want to support,or have themselves lost a loved one to suicide, can meet each year and walk to enlighten others of the effects  of suicide or to bring money in for the research and helping of others. I would not have been pushing for this had I not been made so cruelly aware by the death of my precious son this way. I am struggling even now as I am preparing the way for a new chapter for the foundation of prevention of suicide possibly in the small town where my son grew up and where he died. But my family and I press on in this path we are set on, not by our choice but by his. So the love we have that burns on forever is meted out now through this, one of many pilgrimages on his behalf knowing he would want this and knowing the character he himself had while here in helping others .
     So we will gather,and even now are gathering , and reaching out to one another . We are not alone and I so wish my son had been aware he was not alone !

       Ecclesiastes 4:9,10
Two are better than one , because they have a good return for their labor : If either of them falls down, one can help the other up.
 Lord help us to help one another up and help those who feel alone to see and know they have some one , even on a phone call that can help them up when they fall.

 If you need help and feel alone and are considering suicide please contact the afsp.org site to find info and get  help .  Your life is valuable and you are a gift to this world.