My days seem to be filled with thoughts and doings surrounding the Out of the Darkness walk .
Expected of course, but a bit overwhelming at times. I find myself switching between feelings of wanting this to be behind me and trying to get pumped up for the actual event and all it will do for the community it is being held in, and my family and myself, as we experience a powerful push forward toward some good coming from my son's death.
I have been blessed with some amazing people just in the start of this planning . I know that God is in this and setting the pathway for us. So does that mean I am at rest in this planning ? Not completely as at times panic wants to set in . It is not ideal to plan something of this magnitude in just a month but it is what it is. So we work and plan and set in motion what will culminate in a walk to make people aware of an organization that is working to prevent suicide and educate and we memorial the loved ones who have passed through death by suicide. God help us as we endeavor to prevent more needless deaths and bring help and healing to others.
Today I sat in my sun room and searched some scripture trying to find some way to connect with God as I was feeling distant . The word abide came up in a devotional so I did a word search to just grab a deeper meaning for my distant heart. I love searching word meanings as going deeper . So I prayed a prayer using some of the words and phrases from the word search. I asked God to help me reside and dwell,settle,and make my heart a lodging place for him. I know he heard and that he is in process of making my heart a better dwelling place for him to lodge in. Thank you lord Jesus !
I need to dwell in His Presence each day so I can have rest and not strive in my own abilities that certainly are not up to this task. So I look at these Scripture to soak in more of God's presence for this day. Psalm 139: 7~9 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence ? If I go up to the heavens, you are there ; if I make my bed in the depths , you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, " Surely the darkness will hide me even the light become as night around me," even the darkness will not be dark to you ; the night will shine like the day , for darkness Is as light to you.
Lord Jesus, thank you for your never failing and steadfast love for me . I need you more and more each new day. Make my heart your dwelling place . Amen
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